My mother cried again tonight =( it's been quite some time since she last did... so was pretty perplexed. The same stuff again i guess.. my paternal side relatives giving her hell lot of pressures, "bring up the kids properly"... "why aren't you sad that your husband passed away?". It's like the FUCK they want man. Do they even begin to think that after my father's passing i am not her child anymore? How the fuck do you get on with life if your every moment is spent crying over what's irreversible.
Yet, cried she has, several times.. a day. She may not show it but definitely her sundered heart has not been repaired or should i say never will be the same again. Everytime she cries, i do not know what i can do to help... hug her.. encourage her.. tell her to stay strong. Then after awhile it seems to me that she might be thinking what the fuck do i know about it. Livelong friends they have been, for almost 40 years they have been together. Childhood friends till ... then. The sadness and sorrow i may feel seems overshadowed by hers... how then do i console her? How then do i help her? How can someone who watches from the edges begin to feel for the one in the warpath? How... how indeed.
posted by `-ryoken # 11:50 PM
