A levels ended for me since tuesday. Not totally unexpected, the feeling of relief, joy and peace did not settle in after the last paper. As everyone, ie. perry, yanlong, minkai, has noticed we have been playing way too much during the exam period anyway. lol. Oh well, don't think I did really well for A levels. Don't even think I can get 3As what more can I say about 4. At this point I am still only having vague pictures of what I am going to study for my tertiary education. And more and more do I realise, that I am not really focused on anything, and am the kind of person who just does what he is given, not seek what he wants. Hopefully in time that would change, besides if I do not get med, law or whatever scholarship I may aim for in the near future, I got 2 years to think about what to do. Slightly comforting huh. The gift and curses of being male.
As usual I seem to have lumped a few points in 1 paragraph thereby showing how little organisational skill I have. o.0
So with the end of the A levels also come with it the ends of many things, which I already mentioned a few posts back. On hindsight, leaving school now, ending lessons, losing a few friends, escaping teachers, doesn't look at all as appealing as they did when I was back in primary school, secondary school, hell even J1. boohoo.
Anyway, in Sports:
England crashed out of the Euro 2008! Lost 3-2 to Croatia. I really have to say the Crouch goal is spectacular and he should really be the hero of the match. The Croatian last goal was totally noob and all I can say is that the goal keeper is not experienced enough lol. (as if i am) Well, hopefully now England will stop being so spoilt, lumbering into each major soccer tournament with sheer luck instead of their expected prowess. Maybe a new manager, with reinforced vigour and spirit will push them on to be the best team in the world! Go England! But for now, and 2008, GO HOLLAND!
In recent news:
My brother got hospitalised again. This time with irregular heartbeat. Only this morning did I realise that he has been hospitalised many times before. High fever, dengue, bronchitis and now this. What a weak sauce =p. Anyway fuck, man, take caare of yourself and get fit. I don't think I can last any longer in this world if something were to happen to you.
So went to NUH this morning, almost had breakfast at the kopitiam. But then when my mother suggested it, I had a rather severe reaction. Like "HELL NO!". Apparently despite all my thinking, my supposed nonchalance, I still subconciously miss my father, and despair at the thought of his last moments in this world. Everytime people chat about topics relating to their parents, I just get this very dull and highly envious feeling together. Its not that they are tactless or anything, can't expect everyone to know about my misery seeing as I did not do much telling.
Also, it seems that the world I see has lost much appeal and colour and vibrance compared to few years ago. The way I view beauty, the means that I get that warm fuzzy feeling in my heart has all changed. I almost get irritated everytime someone complains about something materialistic, swearing they would give something up for something money can buy. Its almost as if I live in a different world. Perhaps, it can be said that I've gained a different perspective, as a bright side to this dark matter. But what the fuck, why do all good things come to an end... in fact, they come to an end earlier for me. I would much rather be ignorant, stupid or whatever just to have my father back. But if I were that, would I ever learn to miss my father the way I do now?
In local news:
I got an email from CMPB that I am PES A at last! and I will probably enlist in January but not sure of the date, which is weird because we are supposed to get enlistment notice 2 months before the thing. Maybe I got scammed. bleah.
In music news:
The Zutons - Valerie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iz7OfuTbCO4
Timbaland feat. One Republic - Apologize
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAfcVldfPec
Beautiful songs, nice videos.
Thats all for now.
posted by `-ryoken # 9:46 PM
